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there's so many things that i want to do.

1. hello kitty's 35th anniversary tour [tickets damn expensive. no photo-taking, can only stay there for 2 hours, sigh, it's plain extortion. ):]
2. kusu island, sister island, cycling at pulau ubin, sun-tanning at sentosa, singapore zoo, night safari, watch movies... [ i cant think of anymore now.. ] with my baby boy.. (where to get money?)
3. meet up with girlfriends.
4. buy many many new clothes.
5. get myself a new ipod.
6. change my phone!!!!!
7. i feel like going for dance classes :/
8. get hyped up for A division!
9. finish all my story books! got many many lor..

sigh, so many things i want to do. so places i want to go. my entire world now has only got my baby boy, girlfriends, studies and netball trainings.

next year will be my last year in A division. i really want to make history in my last year. i dont ask for more. as long as we are able to make it into the second round, i'm contented. but of course, if we can go further, that would be the best. i kinda miss my secondary school netball days. i missed having the glory. i miss competing for the top four positions. i miss those feelings whereby the entire team fight their guts off to secure that place that belong to us. all these kind of feelings has become so so so unfamiliar. i have very good teammates. and all of us fought hard to secure a placing in the main team. we've worked hard. all that i asked for is to have the team bonding now as well as the fighting spirit, the determination we are supposed to have on court. i believe in this team. i believe we can make history. i believe we can do ourselves, mdm sin and the coaches proud. look at the amount of effort they put in for us. all that we can do to show them that we appreciate their effort is to fight hard on court. i believe that would be the best gift to them isnt it? i dont know why but this just came to my mind. we'll work hard together and strive for the best next year isnt it?

sigh, boyfriend, boyfriend. i dont like holidays... i hate holidays! ): and i've made record this week. out of 7 days, i dedicated 5 days to netball.. amazing huh? seriously, i just hate holidays lah. it's so contradicting. during school days, i cant wait for holidays to come. now that the holidays are here, i hated it to the maximum. everybody is too busy to spend time with me! boyfriend working, girlfriends studying, mummy daddy working, brother staying at home = not of any help at all. i'm dying of boredom! tsk! holiday this year just suck lah!!!

cant wait for A levels to be over. after that i'm going to work, then save up, then can go many many place with baby boy and girlfriends! (: gah, i've got a course later. need to wake up early.. i shall go and rest now..

goodnight people (:

ah yes, muscle aches all over again...

you know, i miss my boy but i think i need to learn and get accustomed to this because he's going NS soon right baby boy? ):
okay, i shant brood over things and pack my room, especially my study table! tsk tsk tsk, the whole room as though i just had war :/

boyfriend is working... ): i got so many place want to go, especially............... sigh, tickets expensive.. no work = no money! work = no study! no study = DIE! TSKKKKKK!

this is it. tomorrow's the final day of the A levels. and i'm telling you, i'm freaking nervous and panicky about everything now. whatever it is, i shall stay focus until the end of my presentation. i hope the mind is giving me enough strength to stay focus for that hour.

OMG!! SCHOOL TODAY IS JUST A WASTE OF TIME! PRACTICALLY DOINJG NOTHING FOR PW ): GAHHHH!

okay lah, stop complaining. anyway, i cant log into facebook and i cant read my friends' livejournal! ): this is so irritating! ): gahhhhhhhhhh...

HAHAHA, ACTUALLY, THIS CRANKY POST CAN BE IGNORED BECAUSE I DONT HAVE ENOUGH SLEEP! WAHAHAHA! I WANT TO GO HOME!! ):

had a fantastic workout this afternoon at plaza singapura. had an hour of spinning and the rest of the day was spent with my love. walked around town, had KFC for brunch, caught " love happens " , went far east shopping, and finally home. and my love gave me something i really wanted since last month. ohh boyfriend, boyfriend, so many surprises from you! it brings me back to the the day when you bought me a book which i yearned for dearly and uh-huh... the feeling goes :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D 

hahahaha, this is love.

i want to write something but i cant seem to write anything down. forget it then, i shall not burn my braincells.
11 more days to mathematics exam. and my pure math is so screwed that i think i will totally flunk the whole paper, alongside with stupid careless mistakes that i will make in the statistics component.

damn, the lowest period of my life is here again. facing all the stress from project work, mathematics, mother tongue i just cant do anything right. breaking down soon. my system is shutting down.

i dont understand how one's mind work. what a joke. like hello, we are not blind and stupid?!?!?!

okay, i realized, just about an hour ago, i am not as strong as i thought. the school days are coming to an end and for once, i dread it. those tears came out from the bottom of my heart. i dont know why today but it just came. i tried to stop but the feeling was so....

emotional, yes i know. i cant help it either. i'm sorry i dropped those tears in front of you ):

someone please stop the time so that i have more time with my boyfriend? naive and childish, but that's the only wish i have now...

gah, freezingggg now ):

i hope i can do well enough for my math... hopefully (:
consultation tmr.
op presentation on thurs.
friday training. hopefully we got enough people(:
31st october - spinning event!
2nd november - a level mother tongue paper!
10th november - a level mathematics paper!
13th november - OP presentation!
after that, my world will revolve around...
boyfriend, friends, netball, work, and studies! (:

3 more weeks! hang in there people! (:

the last and final stretch for year 2. i need more strength and faith, both from myself, my loved ones and my friends. i dont know if i can do the papers as well as i wanted to but nonetheless, i will still try.

i worried, for yours as well as my future. will they turn out just the way we thought it would be? then again, who knows? i might have only 2 more months with you, or i may have more. i dont know. i can only get the answer after you made your choice. whatever it is, boyfriend, i'm always here for you okay?

a great friday evening and saturday spent. oh well... the best memories are kept in our minds and hearts right, baby? iloveyou!

math math math math and more math! gosh...

the rainbow seems to vanished at the point of time..
i'll never understand how you feel probably... sigh
now, who can understand how i feel?
myself, myself and myself.
i learnt something new today though.
"love has no expectation."
i dont know why did we ended up talking about r/s anyway.
what a joke.
i wonder what will my status be like.
it's a total question mark.
so many things i want to do but i can only complete one at a time.
i'm sorry for disappointing you. not you, but you.
i hope i wont regret the decision i made.
it's too late to turn back now, isnt it?

amazing day but the guilty conscience still sets in.

met up with secondary classmates and it was awesome! had seoul garden and  ti was superb!
meanwhile, while i was having fun, the poor boyfriend is working in the hot sun. sigh ):

cant wait till next friday. i wonder how did i fare, especially for math. and i wonder, if i'll get to promote. as the days gets nearer, a sense of nervousness and excited-ness overwhelmed me.

gah, off to study. :)

i miss you!

Wednesday was awesome! (: sentosa with boyfriend was brilliant to the max! hahaha, we got ourselves burnt, swam across to the lagoon and played with starfish [ omg, they're loads of them! ], snapped pictures after pictures. hahahah (: after that, we went to Iluma and caught G-FORCE 3D. it was so cool! halfway through the movie, the seats began shaking and we foolishly thought it was the 3D effect, only to find out that it might be the tremors of the earthquake! cool right? hahaha, so anyway, i enjoyed the day and i'm pretty sure boyfriend do enjoy as well right baby? (:

so the effect of the burnt was "shiok". hahaha, i never want to get another burnt because whatever i do, i have to be extremely careful ): hahaha, so when i went back to school on thursday, i had a hard time carry my bag and i look like a lobster. lol.

on friday, i "skipped" school to have an interview session with NHB regarding PW! woah, the interview was awesome! hahahaha, it would helped our project a lot and yes, we had articles to further substantiate our project. should have contact them earlier though. hahaha, in anyway, they had been a great help to us (: thank you nhb! 

saturday, did PW before i meet up with my sec school friends. omg, PW is a murderer i swear. sigh.. so many things to do. and guess what? my H1s is coming in another like 30 plus days? sheesh. ): sec school friend meet up was fun! talked a lot, eat a lot, snap a lot of pictures also. (: so yupps, that's about all for now... shall go do WR 2nd draft now.. sigh.. ):

heyyo people! havent been updating my journal. haha, no time to update. eh okay lah, i admit. is lazy! hahahaha..

so i finished my exams like last friday and then i enjoyed my rest. though not really that much of enjoying but yes, most of the time. hahaha, so while dearest is busy studying for his POA paper, being a nice girlfriend, i accompanied him while he study. hehehe (: lovemysillyboy<3! so while he was having his paper, i was at bugis having a pw meeting, regarding wr. ): bad bad news. sigh, but we managed to allocate jobs evenly and i'm glad to say, i've done mine. hehehe (:

how long have i not trained? one month plus going two? i have no idea. BUT, i went for revive training yesterday and "shiok" man. merely a quarter of 10 minutes and i'm dying of breathlessness. oh gosh! i wonder what will it be like if training officially resumes.. ): sad case. hahaha, okay lah. but at least i managed to score 2 out of 4 that i shot. eh eh eh, not bad already okay? i stop training for dont know how many weeks and i can still score 2 not bad already hor! (: and i almost get cramps! today's training aint too bad after all. hahaha..

this time, usually i'll be awake studying where there is paper the next day. then why am i still awake? because i got pw to do and i'm glad i sent in a draft for my eom if not i'll be dead! hahaha, okay, i just completed my 3rd draft and my portion for wr. hehehe, so i'm practically brain dead now.. needa go recharge (: goodnight people! shall update soon! hahaha

p.s: pohkhim, we didnt forget you lah... aiyoh! hahaha..

i hoped and i wished that i did not screw up any of my papers even though i knew i did in someway or another.. especially management of business paper 1. that was totally screwed! and paper two aint any better. ): gahhhhh... i'm worried for maths paper, for that's the only paper that i had put my entire soul into doing. having consultations after consultations during the week's holiday. but i think i've done okay. let's hope the results show ): econs seems okay but hey, you'll never know. because whenever my scripts came back to me, the whole page is filled in red ink ): which is like omg...  and geog, gahh, i wished that i had a little more time and a little more memory space so that i can squeeze all the content into my ultra small brain ): 

and yes, i had my econs paper two today and it sucked even though it was supposed to be easy..... ): ): ): geog paper 2 ! this friday! and after that, i'm so gonna get pw done and over with~ 

boyfriend got all my disease of having tummyaches after meal. hahaha, that poor boy, and he was somehow influenced by me for all the soft drinks instead of plain water.... hahahahahahaha (: boyfriend boyfriend. (: ILY! 

so i met up with my clique on 11/9, but only 3 of us, AARTI, WEIQIAN, and MYSELF turned up. THERESA and ELIZA was not free. so they cannot come ): sigh, we should meet up TOGETHER soon okayyy? i miss you people!  ): and i turned up on eliza's birthday (: enjoyed myself. met up with ex classmates (: hehehehe, and talked to weiqian.. so long, we havent been chatting like this... all those times (: meet up meet up meet up!

aight, got to go. shall update more soon (: after exams perhaps.. hahahaha